As soon as I became old enough to make my dreams my reality I became a firm believer that the subconscious and the world outside of our flesh and blood is essentially the truth.
Most of my actor friends don't believe it's possible to let go of it and be happy and for a while that was true for me. For the first two years I ached every day. And I had such bad dreams. But then I made the decision to start working on my little shop and all that went away.