Perhaps all writers walk such a line. In general – as we all do in our dreams – I believe I put something of myself into all the characters in my novels male as well as female.
Most of my actor friends don't believe it's possible to let go of it and be happy and for a while that was true for me. For the first two years I ached every day. And I had such bad dreams. But then I made the decision to start working on my little shop and all that went away.